So this post is drafted a few days after the birth of my little one, but I had no time to edit and post, But here it is!
At 36 weeks, I was all ready to go hospital.. but it didnt.. 37 weeks, still waiting… I was like all standby at home, and finally I gave up waiting, i just went out as per normal. At 38 weeks, still no baby, and I was getting impatient. At 39 weeks, my hubby decided to take leave and stay home with me for precaution, as he was working in Malaysia and only came back on weekends.
And so on 27 August, at 5 plus am, I was awaken by some pain and felt like shitting.. so I went toilet to take a poo. Waited some time, still no poo, I went back to sleep. Some pain came again… I went toilet to try again… this time, there was blood.. I got freaked out, and finally I realise the pain was getting stronger, that I was not able to stand properly. I quickly wake my hubby and we immediately packed and off to the hospital…
I have trained my hubby with the protocol, so he knows the carpark, where to bring me, what to carry for me. He even prepared his bag of camera, ipad, iphone charger and all..
I was really thankful that my gynae, KT Tan from KKH, had just arrived to work and immediately visited me, still holding her handbag, and told the staff she would take over from here. When she came back, she immediately checked that I was 2 cm dilated and the bleeding was nothing serious. She also asked if I wanted epidural. I was shocked she asked, cause her style is to do everything natural if possible. When she suggested that, I knew its because she really meant it. As I was screaming in pain and tense up when she was just checking my dilation, she could see I was not going to withstand what’s coming up.. But I hesitated and said I wanted to just try the laughing gas. After I was admitted to the delivery room, I was given laughing gas and she checked and also burst the water bag. This time, I cried in pain, and it was not even the delivery!!! She was only checking, then she turn to me and my hubby, and said, “seriously, consider epidural, as you are so tense, it will be a greater risk for your baby during delivery.”
I took it. And I am glad I did.
EPIDURAL: BAD OR GOOD?
Well, I would say it depends on your situation. It is not failure if you had epidural or C sec. Afterall, we are all doing something wonderful and whichever way you do it, its your choice. If you can tolerate the pain, go ahead. I knew I was not going make it through the pain so I took epidural. And I am so glad I did!
Why it was good:
1) At ease…
I was totally at ease and could still sleep through the contractions.. the epidural may wear off, and you could just click a button, to add another dosage. I added 2 more dosage after the injection.
2) smooth delivery
Many said, you might not feel the pain so cannot push. Honestly, I was pushing with all my might and felt not pain!!! isnt that wonderful? I was able to push so easily. I was still able to feel my contractions as the dosage was just enough to feel slight contractions but no pain at that area. While she stitched me up, as there was a tear, I was still able to talk to my hubby. And still feel my legs and her stitching me. Its like you can feel everything else except pain!!!
Some say you will take longer to deliver. I beg to differ. My gynae told me, it can happen either ways. Either you take longer or in my case, cause I was so relax, I dilated to 8cm within 4 hours and delivered baby within 5 mins after 3 hard push.
I was in shock when I dilated from 4cm to 8cm within an hour. Me and my hubby and everyone at home was still thinking okay, still have to wait for another 4 hrs or so!
Why it is bad:
1) Injection pain
I was really scared when she injected my spinal area, I was really afraid if anything goes wrong. The only thing is to really keep very still and let her inject or else something really do go wrong. It was painful as it really deep in. But its only for that 5mins.
2) cannot get off the bed
Honestly, I was so tired and sleepy that not getting off the bed was a good option for me. If you need to pee, they would insert this tube thing to pee. Honestly, I couldnt feel even when I pee. I can still feel my legs and move them but cant lift them high.
3) the aftermath
After delivery, you are damn hungry, cause you are not given food when you are admitted to prevent your bowels from pooing all over when you deliver. I couldnt down any food as I was vomiting due to the side effects. After about 2-3hrs, I was then able to eat, and man did I eat alot! You could still feel some sore pain at the back, but its normal which would wear off before you leave hospital.
But ultimately, I didnt regret. Now, almost 2 mths after delivery, my back is feeling alright.
Sometimes, I cant believe I am a mum now, it seems like yesterday, I was still 25, still single and dating…
Now, my life is about this little fellow. Everyday, looking at him makes me really happy..
So far KKH was fine for me. You meet mostly good nurses. Only 2-3 really bad nurses whom you dont feel the love.. But so far I like all the nurses who was in charge of taking care of me.
I took B1 Ward, which was relatively comfortable. Not much freebies but I liked it. Its a four bedder. And I had 2 other mums who slept the night with me, so only 3 of us in the ward. Hubbies are not allowed to sleep in with you. The only thing I didnt like was that the visitation hour is very strict, 1030am to 8pm. I guess, they reckon mums need to rest, so too many people is no good. Also, doctors do their rounds before 1030am, so not good to have visitors around. I was only in hospital for 2 days. One day deliver, next day I was out of hospital.
I chose KT Tan, whom many said is very aloof and not so friendly. She suited me. Well, if you choose her, she is not that kind that would pamper you or tell you long stories. Every time I meet her for appt, I would have a list of stuff I wish to enquire and lose no time to ask her even when I am changing clothes. And she would answer one by one. And solve on spot. My appt is always about less than 10 mins, sometimes, 5mins I am out. And I am doing fine. When is something serious then she would take longer to ask you. She is very professional and I read that she is very good with stitching vaginal tear that happens during delivery. So I picked her. She is Senior Consultant and her entourage of midwives are all very professional and efficient. Also no nonsense type. I can see nurses abit scared of her too as she is very firm.
I think it was this year or last year, they started promoting themselves as pro-breastfeeding and started the stay in with baby concept.
Honestly, I dont feel their lactation consultant very nice and good. I had some problems latching, and they didnt really help me.
It was the lactation consultant I called from TCM to help me that I received proper education on how to latch and solve my engorgement with right massaging techniques.
Though now I am still unable to latch, cause I feel really stress when bb cries and I cant latch properly, I chose to pump and sup with formula. But will try again when I feel less stress.
Well, thats all, need to go pump…