Welcoming 2015!

This came a little late, I know… I am just swamped and lazy. With time spare, I rather sleep or rest my mind and body. So what have I accomplished in 2014…not much actually, I just had a baby. Oh well, having a baby is also considered a huge accomplishment!

2014 have not been a good year for me. I realised its the same case for many people, not sure why. Well, there were many news of aircraft missing, shot and gone, ship sank and lives lost.. oh so many sad news.. May all these be gone.

Well, I am waiting for the Chinese New Year, because that is when the year of 2014 be finally over. Talking about bad things. Just last Wednesday, I fell ill and I called my mum to come over to help me with baby as I didnt want to pass my germs to him, and also I had to see the doctor who always had very long queue. Left the house at 11.30am and was waiting for my turn till around 12 plus. Bought lunch back and when I stepped into my house, my mum immediately told me baby is running high fever, 38.5. Okay, this is my first time having to experience baby fever, and because I have yet to have lunch, I was also sick and groggy. My first instinct was to bring him to A&E. Thank goodness my mum was there to keep checking his temperature as before I left, I told her I felt something not right.

Reached A&E, his temperature reached to 39.5. I was super worried. We were asked to go straight to see the doctor, and had to feed him medicine. We pasted the Kool Fever for baby before we left the house, but didnt seem to work. As baby is fussy about medicine, he totally vomitted the medicine and the milk that he down before. No choice had to get it through from the butt. Baby was really cute, as the Indian doctor with heavy Indian accent spoke, he laughed so heartily. I had never seen him laugh so happily before! Whenever he tried to tell us something, baby would be laughing so loudly that the people around was wondering what happen. The doctor was so serious with a straight face and trying to tell us what we need to do, but baby was laughing.  Thinking back I can’t help smiling too.

Finally the medicince was kicking in, his temperature went down to 36.7. But sadly, at this point I found out my Iphone 5 was lost. I was feeling weak with lunch and sick with flu and cough, and running mild fever as well. Was just using my last strength to make sure baby is okay. As they say, a mum will never go done before her child with whatever strength she has.

After he drank his milk and was finally looking better. We headed home together with mil, who drove us and stayed with us. I stayed behind to wait for the security who helped me checked the cctv, unfortunately, they were not able to discover anything and told me to make a police report. I had to go the the police and make my statement which took an hour!!!! I was so sick and tired and feeling faint, but the policeman was really taking his time. I was so weak that I had to sit my head on the table to rest while making statement, yet the policeman could be heard on the phone laughing and making joke with his colleague talking about my case. *rolling eyes* Finally, finished, I fainted at police station as my legs gave way. I was up since 6.30 am sick with flu and cough, went from places to places, exhausted without lunch.

Glad the day ended with baby feeling better. I was really upset about my phone as it has all baby’s first 5 mths pictures. And of course the fact that I had buy a new phone, as I was trying hard not to spend money since I am a SAHM now. I kept crying each time I thought about the photos.

Hubby knew I was upset and got me a new Iphone 6 plus and also helped me to restore back from icloud. Thank goodness he backed up for me some months back, so not all are lost. Love hubby!!!

Now, of course, I am taking every opportunity to take pictures of Baby!! And yes, to back up my pictures!

2015 is gonna be a good year!!! I need to proclaim it!!



A typical day with baby

When I was pregnant, I was wondering how busy it gets when you have to take care of the baby whole day. It can’t be so tiring right? I mean it’s jus feeding, changing diapers and what not. But man oh man it’s so busy and tiring!!

so here is what happens on a typical day. I hate laundry day cause that’s even more tiring.

3am Pumping breastmilk

6am Pumping breastmilk for 35 mins

635am wash all Pump equipment and bottles and sterilize. Boil water for drinking

645am eat breakfast (pumping makes me very hungry)

7am Bathe baby

730am Feed baby

8am coax baby to sleep

depending on how long baby can sleep. He usually don’t sleep longer than an hour. When he sleeps, I sleep. Pumping makes me very tired too.

9am or 930am to 1130am put laundry and rest or entertain baby with singing! And pumping for 35mins

10am feed baby

1130am pack laundry(more often than not, I get interrupted with baby) so a 10min job can only be accomplished

12am buy lunch, cause it’s impossible for me to cook. Tried once and get interrupted all the time

1230 feed baby and try to eat lunch

1am finally can eat lunch

130 pumping again and washing

215pm entertain baby or rest

3pm feed baby

330 pumping again and washing

415pm reading time!

530pm feed baby

615 pump and washing

7pm bathe baby

pass over to mother in law who helps me with night feed.

I do get rest in between with mil’s help. But a typical day is so tiring. Night time the pumping and washing continues.

Its really no joke, taking care if baby. So it is for my friends who has 2-3 kids. It’s even more tiring.

Oh well, that’s sums up my day. Now with baby sleeping. I can write my blog.


I am so tired….

Started my exercise regime this week, as I am seriously not fitting into clothes. When I went shopping that day, I could hardly find any that fit me properly!!!!! I had to hide my tummy and my fat arms! The only good fats I had from this pregnancy was that I had a J.Lo ass that thank goodness, my hubby appreciates.

I only do pumping for my breast feeding, so that helps to lose some quite abit.

Feeling a little too out of the world, like losing touch what’s hot and new. I feel like an auntie now! I even go orchard in my sloppy outfit. Sigh… I had to make a quite run for my errands, so I didn’t bother to dress up and put make up. Be thankful I was wearing proper clothes.

I dont even even have time to meet my friends. I had to think if I go out, it must be within certain or I need to pump. So no long talks. And I need to bathe baby before his sleep. So it must be before 7, that I reach home. My oh my, gone are the days of my time where I can stay out late.

Gonna aim to lose weight and keep fit! It’s time for a new cool look. When baby is older, I can start bringing him out too.

Feeling sick

I really hate being sick at this point of time. During my pregnancy, I made it a point to really take care of my health. Eat healthily, ensure hygiene and all. I only fell sick once during my whole pregnancy and it was for 2 weeks, as I could only eat very mild medicine so it would take very much longer to heal. After giving birth, I realise you cant eat alot of medicine during breastfeeding as well! So I had to choose natural remedies to cure myself which would take longer to heal. Sigh… Its tough being sick and taking care of a baby. Thank goodness my mil is around to help, and I could take a nap in the noon to rest.

Talking about sick, I would feel worse if its my baby who is sick. Today, he vomitted again. According to many medical articles, its normal during the first few months, as his stomache is still adjusting. Strangely, after he vomit, he could still smile at me. I felt even worse, like I didnt manage prevent that. He is so adorable, before, he vomited, he was like gagaga, talking to me like he was really having a conversation. I am not sure if he was telling me he don’t feel good or what. He didn’t cry, just like having a normal conversation with me. I nodded along, as if I understood. He smiled again. I cant help but fall in love with him. And he does resemble my hubby alot, haha, yes, I guess that’s what love is all about.

I hate this feeling actually, cause when you love, you feel vulnerable. And I hate feeling vulnerable. But what to do, I guess, I am forever bounded by this little guy. Finally caught a picture of him smiling, he was looking at my sister in law who just came out of the shower with her turban towel and making funny actions to entertain him. Its hard to take picture of him smiling at me as he would be distracted by the phone and turned serious, so I am really happy to able to capture this. More to come!!


The Day of Birth

So this post is drafted a few days after the birth of my little one, but I had no time to edit and post, But here it is!


At 36 weeks, I was all ready to go hospital.. but it didnt.. 37 weeks, still waiting… I was like all standby at home, and finally I gave up waiting, i just went out as per normal. At 38 weeks, still no baby, and I was getting impatient. At 39 weeks, my hubby decided to take leave and stay home with me for precaution, as he was working in Malaysia and only came back on weekends.

And so on 27 August, at 5 plus am, I was awaken by some pain and felt like shitting.. so I went toilet to take a poo. Waited some time, still no poo, I went back to sleep. Some pain came again… I went toilet to try again… this time, there was blood.. I got freaked out, and finally I realise the pain was getting stronger, that I was not able to stand properly. I quickly wake my hubby and we immediately packed and off to the hospital…

I have trained my hubby with the protocol, so he knows the carpark, where to bring me, what to carry for me. He even prepared his bag of camera, ipad, iphone charger and all..

I was really thankful that my gynae, KT Tan from KKH, had just arrived to work and immediately visited me, still holding her handbag, and told the staff she would take over from here. When she came back, she immediately checked that I was 2 cm dilated and the bleeding was nothing serious. She also asked if I wanted epidural. I was shocked she asked, cause her style is to do everything natural if possible. When she suggested that, I knew its because she really meant it. As I was screaming in pain and tense up when she was just checking my dilation, she could see I was not going to withstand what’s coming up.. But I hesitated and said I wanted to just try the laughing gas. After I was admitted to the delivery room, I was given laughing gas and she checked and also burst the water bag. This time, I cried in pain, and it was not even the delivery!!! She was only checking, then she turn to me and my hubby, and said, “seriously, consider epidural, as you are so tense, it will be a greater risk for your baby during delivery.”

I took it. And I am glad I did.


Well, I would say it depends on your situation. It is not failure if you had epidural or C sec. Afterall, we are all doing something wonderful and whichever way you do it, its your choice. If you can tolerate the pain, go ahead. I knew I was not going make it through the pain so I took epidural. And I am so glad I did!

Why it was good: 

1) At ease…

I was totally at ease and could still sleep through the contractions.. the epidural may wear off, and you could just click a button, to add another dosage. I added 2 more dosage after the injection.

2) smooth delivery

Many said, you might not feel the pain so cannot push. Honestly, I was pushing with all my might and felt not pain!!! isnt that wonderful? I was able to push so easily. I was still able to feel my contractions as the dosage was just enough to feel  slight contractions but no pain at that area. While she stitched me up, as there was a tear, I was still able to talk to my hubby. And still feel my legs and her stitching me. Its like you can feel everything else except pain!!!

Some say you will take longer to deliver. I beg to differ. My gynae told me, it can happen either ways. Either you take longer or in my case, cause I was so relax, I dilated to 8cm within 4 hours and delivered baby within 5 mins after 3 hard push.

I was in shock when I dilated from 4cm to 8cm within an hour. Me and my hubby and everyone at home was still thinking okay, still have to wait for another 4 hrs or so!

Why it is bad:

1) Injection pain

I was really scared when she injected my spinal area, I was really afraid if anything goes wrong. The only thing is to really keep very still and let her inject or else something really do go wrong. It was painful as it really deep in. But its only for that 5mins.

2) cannot get off the bed

Honestly, I was so tired and sleepy that not getting off the bed was a good option for me. If you need to pee, they would insert this tube thing to pee. Honestly, I couldnt feel even when I pee. I can still feel my legs and move them but cant lift them high.

3) the aftermath

After delivery, you are damn hungry, cause you are not given food when you are admitted to prevent your bowels from pooing all over when you deliver. I couldnt down any food as I was vomiting due to the side effects. After about 2-3hrs, I was then able to eat, and man did I eat alot! You could still feel some sore pain at the back, but its normal which would wear off before you leave hospital.

But ultimately, I didnt regret. Now, almost 2 mths after delivery, my back is feeling alright.

Sometimes, I cant believe I am a mum now, it seems like yesterday, I was still 25, still single and dating…

Now, my life is about this little fellow. Everyday, looking at him makes me really happy..



KK Hospital 

So far KKH was fine for me. You meet mostly good nurses. Only 2-3 really bad nurses whom you dont feel the love.. But so far I like all the nurses who was in charge of taking care of me.


I took B1 Ward, which was relatively comfortable. Not much freebies but I liked it. Its a four bedder. And I had 2 other mums who slept the night with me, so only 3 of us in the ward. Hubbies are not allowed to sleep in with you. The only thing I didnt like was that the visitation hour is very strict, 1030am to 8pm. I guess, they reckon mums need to rest, so too many people is no good. Also, doctors do their rounds before 1030am, so not good to have visitors around. I was only in hospital for 2 days. One day deliver, next day I was out of hospital.


I chose KT Tan, whom many said is very aloof and not so friendly. She suited me. Well, if you choose her, she is not that kind that would pamper you or tell you long stories. Every time I meet her for appt, I would have a list of stuff I wish to enquire and lose no time to ask her even when I am changing clothes. And she would answer one by one. And solve on spot. My appt is always about less than 10 mins, sometimes, 5mins I am out. And I am doing fine. When is something serious then she would take longer to ask you. She is very professional and I read that she is very good with stitching vaginal tear that happens during delivery. So I picked her. She is Senior Consultant and her entourage of midwives are all very professional and efficient. Also no nonsense type. I can see nurses abit scared of her too as she is very firm.


I think it was this year or last year, they started promoting themselves as pro-breastfeeding and started the stay in with baby concept.

Honestly, I dont feel their lactation consultant very nice and good. I had some problems latching, and they didnt really help me.

It was the lactation consultant I called from TCM to help me that I received proper education on how to latch and solve my engorgement with right massaging techniques.

Though now I am still unable to latch, cause I feel really stress when bb cries and I cant latch properly, I chose to pump and sup with formula. But will try again when I feel less stress.

Well, thats all, need to go pump…

My Pregnancy Journey

I have not mentioned much about my pregnancy as I was really lazy, so shall just summarized it in one post. Will talk about some rantings, and what I discovered during my journey. This post was written during my eighth mth, as I assume during my confinement, I might not have time to blog.

First Trimester  (1- 3 mths) – Excitement

Well, this is the time when your emotions are thrilled when you find out about you are pregnant. You wish to tell the whole world, but do not wish to jinxed it. So you only tell your family members and friends whom you know would stand by you if anything were to happen.

I didnt really spot or had any major situation. Except once when I did spot a little but was something minor. I was late for my monthly period, and was tested for pregnancy which was positive. You can imagine the whole lot of things that can go through your mind. You cant tell your family as you weren’t sure. It may or may not be. The curiosity seriously kills you. My hubby was at his best containing his excitement, as he didn’t want to be disappointment, so he didn’t say much but just said, “if it is, dear, I will be most happy”. When we see the doctor at polyclinic to get referral to KK Hospital, we were told to wait till 4th week of the pregnancy, to be very sure its pregnant. What!!! that’s like another 3 weeks!! So we waited and waited and waited. And honestly, we got a little impatient and did again the pregnancy test, still positive. Okay.. we can be quite sure. Finally the day came, with the doctor confirming it. We spread the news.

I started with mild nasausness, which was able to be contained with seaband, ginger lemon tea (works like magic for me). I was not vomiting yet. Some cramping for a few days which was normal.

Once you confirmed you are pregnant, just get the book “what to expect when you are expecting”. It seriously cleared alot of doubts for me. As your body is going through serious changes.

So here are some questions mum-to be might ask: (well, at least I asked about it during my pregnancy).

1) Can you travel? Is Japan safe to go? 

I traveled to Tokyo, Japan for a business trip for about 4 days.  And yes with doctor’s approval. I only refrain from eating sashimi, which I read was not good for pregnancy as its raw. I avoided all raw food throughout my pregnancy. Its a lifestyle choice. My friend told me she ate raw sushi but only those very fresh. Well, I can’t tell if its fresh or what, I rather not risk it. Its up to you. Reason being as there is bacteria and parasites. I actually avoided all raw food, from half cooked eggs to slightly uncooked chicken (those chicken rice meat with a little bit of redness near the bone). I am that careful.

Japan is safe to go. Well, I am only there for 4 days, so I guess if there is radiation, I am still fine. I was only paranoid about radiation. So I actually chose my food carefully, but honestly, when I was there, all the food look so good that I just ate anything except raw food, which was so tempting, with the glistering salmon staring at me…

The only thing I wish to caution is the flight seat. I was trying to sleep on the plane, and was in awkward position even though I had 2 seats. When I reached home, I had really bad backache, I couldnt really move my lower body. Your hips are actually expanding to make space for the baby. So try to sit in comfortable position and chair.

2) Can you eat medicine? 

Even though during my 3 weeks of uncertainty, I avoided eating medicine. Thankfully I wasnt sick during that time. I would try all natural homemade methods such as honey with lemon, gargle salt water, drink warm water and all. Try and keep myself in good condition. I feel that during the first 3 mths its best to avoid if you can.

I had a really bad flu, sore throat and cough during my 7-8th mth, and had no choice but to eat medicine for fast recovery as I was coughing very badly. The GP will not give you antibiotics but only those super mild medicine suitable for pregnancy, thus it would take you much longer to recover than those stronger medicine he would give a non-pregnant person.

Second Trimester (4-6mth) – I feel like shit

Mid of third to 5th mth

Smell and vomiting became common. Ginger lemon tea didn’t help. Heart burn started. Bad mood. Short breath while talking, stomache starts to show. No appetite. Lost weight.

Honestly not much recollection during this period as it was not pleasant. Other than the scanning of my little one.

Oh at fifth mth, we were able to scan the gender of baby. And it is (drumroll….) a little boy! The doctor was so funny, he said the baby was head down, and his legs were wide open, it was undoubtedly a little boy.

I drank bird nest and codyceps  during my 5th – 6mth the most. I do not recommend more than that. Most of the pregnant mums I know who drank longer than this period had their baby really big. But of course, that’s different for every mums.

Third Trimester (7-10mths) – Finale 

I am the happiest here. Its like life is wonderful again, birds start chirping, flowers started blooming, sun is shinning!!! Food is all good! All I think about is food and sleep. As my baby bump is a gettting heavier…

Started to buy baby’s stuff, which is all very exciting….. how is it that baby’s clothes are so adorable!!!!!

Only sleeping is kind of uncomfortable.

The little boy is moving alot and its evident when you can see his little hand and i think his bum, moving across your stomache. As space is getting tighter as he grows bigger, his movements can be felt more and evident on my baby bump. I love it when he moves.

Questions you might ask: 

1) Can you eat durian? Coconut, Drink Barley? 

Well, what I was told is eating durian, can increase the baby weight if your baby is growing too slowly. As for me, my baby was growing quite normally, so I only ate for the cravings. But once, I made a mistake to eat when I was already quite heaty, I fell sick for 2 freaking weeks and had to pop pills to recover. Not worth it. But the good thing was at my next check up, baby was still growing healthily and at the normal range. A good size. So i stopped eating durian. I realise during my 7th mth onwards, I was getting heaty. At my eighth mth, i started drinking homemade barley or young coconut (Malaysian type only) to cool down. I read that Thai coconut is not so good as they inject sugar. (not sure if its true) but I can only find the Malaysian coconut at the foodcourt near my hse.

2) Contractions: Fake or real? 

Well, during your last month, you would have your antena up in the air for any slight movement or happenings. From a little bleeding to pain in the stomache.

Well, rule of thumb if you suspect contraction, its damn bloody painful that you cant talk. It would be like for a shot period of time, then ease and then it comes again. It gets stronger and stronger as time goes, and closer intervals..

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I always wonder why is it so difficult for some people to admit their mistakes and just say “sorry”. Its just a word.

Today, I went to my usual chicken rice stall to purchase a chicken rice set that has the chicken with rice, and vegetables. The lady that usually takes my order was not there, it was another “auntie” who is about 45 and above.

I ordered a set, and paid, told her I will be coming back to collect. When I went to collect, I noticed it was without the vegetables, obviously she took my my order wrong. Guess what she said, “Oh you ordered wrongly”. I even repeated twice when I ordered. Then she turn to her colleague and said ” the customer wants to change her order”. Hello! its not change order, is please make it correct. I then said, I actually ordered a set just now, and she quickly turn to her colleague she wants to add the vegetable now. Hello again, that is all so misleading that I made the mistake in ordering. Her colleague saw that what I said, and everyone knows she made the mistake, but she just refuse to apologize. Cant be bothered to argue with her, I left after taking my  food.

Well, this is something I noticed. Having worked with ladies above 45 and 50s, I realised the word, “sorry”, is seldom in their dictionary. Okay, I am not saying its all women that age, but quite a number of them. When you confront them with damning evidence of their mistake, they can coolly either change the subject quickly, or say alot of things to hint that its not their fault.

My mum has these attitude too. No offense, i think my mum is great with all her care and concerns, I just wish sometimes she would admit certain mistakes, and just move on. These 50 year old lady, I worked with before, has never once said “sorry” for the mistake she makes during my years of  working in the same company. Why?? Why is it so difficult to say straight in the eye that it is mistake.

To me, it takes bravery to admit your mistake, but weakness to not acknowledge it.

But to them, it is probably, she didnt want to be seen weak, and old. Or to be linked with words like “useless”, “made many mistakes” and etc. But I sincerely think that I rather you admit your mistake and move on. Cause, even young people made mistakes. But acknowledging it is far more important. Cause, it would come a time, when everyone can obviously see that you made the mistake but you undeniably denied it. Isnt it worse? Isn’t it self-deluding?